A Father's Prayer

Good Evening Father, its me tonight, and we've come to it again.

One of your sons needs your help, to protect him from the wind.

Some days they blow so hard it seems they'll carry us away.

And keep us from returning to that place thou'd have us stay.

I know before, thou dids't commission me, to protect him from this place.

To keep him safe from all the storms, and teach him of thy grace.

And Tonight I feel like Peter, running to wake thy Son.

"Master the tempest! How can we survive? I fear we're all undone!"

I know this is the mission I was sent here to do.

To help them both move on their way and bring them back to you.

But some days the billows toss so high and play on the angry deep.

And on this night I lie awake and I find it hard to sleep.

The veil it seems is extra thick inside his little mind.

His Spirit bumps against its walls and struggles a weakness to find.

If we could look into the past, to days long gone I'm sure

We'd see a warrior of light and truth, of strength and intention pure.

But as I said the wind it blows, the billows toss, the ship it sways,

And makes it all so hard to see, you're promise of better days

So for tonight I've one request, only one thing I need.

Just let Our son sleep comfortably another day to see. 

For someday soon your promise is, I'll see him this is sure

The veil be gone, his mind made whole, his Spirit holy and pure.

I'll let him rest in Thy care tonight, I've done all I can do

And so Dear Father I entrust his care this night to only You

Thou art the only one I trust to love him as I do

For the rest of my life I will freely give,

To Him, to Her and to You.

Days Like Today

Spirit you need to know that your mom is a saint. She's a saint because of days like today. In order to explain it to you I need to start with the picture below.

Ya see Mom's job today was to cross this river (metaphorically speaking). The river is you, Mom had some things to do with you today, that represents crossing the river. What she realized very early in the day was that this river wasn't as calm as it looked. There was a school of piranhas lurking underneath these calm waters, ready to devour anything or anyone that dared attempt to cross it. 

Autism does that sometimes. It sneaks up on both you and your mother. You react in ways she can't predict, and you can't control. It's taxing for both of you. So when you read this and you understand what it was like for her today, give her a hug and tell her you love her. 

Sometimes she even waded into the water and got attacked, but give her some credit she got across the river. Even with all of those piranhas lurking. Part of the calling of being your mom, and she doesn't flinch a bit. 

So give it up to the two superheroes in our home. You, for fighting off your autism, and your mom for making you her priority...always.

That's why she's our Heart.

Movie Nights

You watched Kung Fu Panda for the 1000th time tonight. You giggled at Po and the never ending slapstick he provides. The Dragon Warrior that never really fit in. All the time wanting to be more, knowing that his story was bigger than the situation life had thrown at him. 

Kinda reminds me of my hero. He's a kid  that finds himself in a very similar situation to Po. Many of his physical attributes keep him from being all the things he wishes he could be. Many of the people around him feel as though he doesn't quite fit in, but like Po, this kid never gives up. He chooses to see the good in everyone and assumes that the bad is just a misunderstanding. What a great way to live! Too often I let my skepticism reek havoc on what I should really see. Family, friends, brothers, and sisters. 

Like Po, Spirit, you see the potential in others, and I envy your perspective. As always you teach me lessons that I have trouble learning on my own. And like your friend Po, I think one day we will kneel at your feet and recognize the true measure of your character, and the breadth and depth of your obedience and understanding of the plan of your Heavenly Father.

For now, know that I am watching and keeping watch, until you are ready to take the reigns.

Love,

Guts